It's me. Guess this page have been dead for awhile? Last semester was not really that busy, however, it was tiring. Therefore, stopped writing for awhile. So, tomorrow will be the start of Sem 2.1. Hmmm .. sian to the max because when school reopens, it means money is involved again. Totally gets irritated when the idea of poly students having to pay more than the JC students and etc, really feel kind of unfair. The school fee are more expensive and espcecially the bus fare also. No offence to anyone just that it gets a little heart pain to keep buying textbooks and etc when we do not always use it and maybe just use it for once or twice which is like a waste only.

Forget it. Shall not grumble much when this is my first post after such a long time. Alright, shall get my dinner and wait for my dear boyfriend to come and meet me. Thank you for being there these few days to kill my boredom though you are working really hard. Hehe.

I am actually scared of my future now. Wondering what am I supposed to do when I graduate. Should I really go and become a cook and then slowly becoming a real chef? My inital plan was to finish this diploma and save some money to let me go overseas to study some nutrition course. However, that would take years and when I return, I am not that young anymore. I am scared that when I return, I become someone useless because I have been studying. In addition, there is the CIA now. I should go there and study and take up the degree there which would do me good too right? I know I cannot have both which will be finishing the CIA degree and going overseas and study the nutrition course. Haix. By the time I finish all these, I would be around 25 to 26 years old which is not young anymore. I am scared. Or maybe I should go back to school and teach? However, it means I would have to go to NIE and study. Which isn't bad too.

I only know, my greatest dream is to open a shop of my own. Cooking for the people who patronises my shop. Doing these will keeps me happy, serious. However, my standard of knowledge for cooking is not up to that level yet and I know it. I have no money and have not much product knowledge. I am afraid. I do not want to be someone who live without plans =(. Sometimes watching the movie, I really want to be like the actresses inside, having a stable job and having someone you love beside you. It feels nice. But the standard of living in Singapore is getting higher and higher, it would sure be a problem for me when in the very near future and I know I have to be prepared. Maybe people would think why am I thinking so much, why should I think of all these first when I have not even step out into the world. However, ever since working for F1. Working inside a hotel, it is fun. But I am scared I do not have enough passion to really work hard in it. I am scared I will be stucked forever as a small cook if I am choosing this route.

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Hihi! Haha. Been busy this few weeks especially this week. Things were improving a little for me in the kitchen, however, I am still as slow which really make me pissed off. Seriously. But I was too tired to seriously care about it.

Had my practical yesterday and I was like my time management got problem! Hopefully no deduct a lot of marks. Seriously I am like pissed off at the cleaning part due to some things. It's over now, so I shall not say much.

Eh, so met up with bby today. Had swensens today, I think their food deproved a lot. Like seriously not nice, I think. And the plate wasn't even hot when they served. And the service wasn't as good especially when the restaurant wasn't that really really busy? Lols. Think I might not visit it again for a period of time, waste of money sia. Haha.

After that, went to buy movie tickets for "Priest" and then we went to shop at Cold Storage. Haha. 5.30pm finally came and so, we went to watch the show. It was not bad. Quite nice? Haha. I give it a 3.5/5. Should try watching it. There will be a part 2 for sure. Haha. The show that I watched recently like got next part one. Haha. Eg, Thor, Fast and Furious 5 and Priest. Hopefully the next part for each movie would be as nice and entertaining =).

Speaking of which, I went to watch "Fast and Furious 5" last week. It was awesome! I liked it a lot especially the cars. I am kind of a semi-fan for it because I like them driving the car and the cars are like so cool and nice. Haha. Unfortunately, I wouldn't have such driving skills nor have such a car to drive in Singapore. Singapore also cannot have such cars I think? Even if there is, we also can't speed on the road. So sian.

Alright, shall stop posting. Damn tired. Pictures to be added next time =).

The feelings. It is being refreshed again. The feelings. That was so clear and not stranger, is back again. The smell, the look ... they are back. It feels so familiar and feel that it just happened yesterday. It is a good thing because it makes everything to be freshen up again. Sweet.

It's the last day of April and I think I should post since I think I have not been posting for a week since the last? Haha.

This week was the start of a new semester and new year for me because I am being promoted to year 2 in my poly life, as well as my rest of my friends. Everyone was being brought to a whole new semester and the main thing we does in this semester was to learn how to cook professionally. It will also train us to be more disciplined and also no social life for us? Haha.

Wonder how they train us to be more disciplined? They train us by letting us have roll call. You are not reading wrongly, yup, it is roll call. If you do not understand what this mean, it means that we have grooming session every morning. They would check our grooming and then we would also have some "asking questions" time, lastly, we will be dismissed to have our lecture. This happen everyday for the past 1 week. First two days were a little stress because everyone was scared to be caught because of the hair and etc. However, I think everyone somehow got the hang of it, and hence, there was lesser people being caught for not well-groomed problem.

Now, let's get on to why there will be no social life for everyone? It is because ... everyone have to reach school quite early to prepare because our roll call is at 7.50am. Therefore, we have to reach earlier to prepare? I would have to wake up at 5.30am everyday to bath. Then wait for my brother and father to get ready and off I start my day. Normally I will reach at around 6.45am-7am. Haha. I think the earlier the better so that if there is any cropped up, I would have more time to solve it? However, it is still alright since I think I somehow got the hang of doing my hair and since I do something to it at home also.

In the kitchen, it was fun because I got to learn to cook the broth and stock. It was fun though it was a little confusing and a little messy. Haha. It was a little like f&n just that it is more challenging and the task are greater. Hehe. But I guess I would get the hang of it soon because it is kind of fun. The most cannot take it part is the lecture part where I would fall asleep without me knowing it myself. Haha! However, I just need more time to get used to waking up early and then I would be more concentrated during the lecture time! Hehe,

Alright, I think I shall end it here. Shall update next week! Haha =)

Finally, I get to rest at home today? Haha. But going out later to eat with mummy and sister. Hehe.

Have been quite busy since last Sunday? Since I woke up at 8.30am last Sunday and slept late the night before, I have not been having a very good rest? Was like busy preparing for school and also to help bby slowly buy his stuffs for chalet. Then Monday was still alright because I get to rest. Tuesday was a tired day because I have got my orientation and thus, I have to wake up at 5.30am and this would be my waking up time when school starts. Haha.

Tuesday was like orientation and then after that, I went to meet bby and buy some stuffs that I would need for school. Then Wednesday was the chalet. And it was also bby's birthday. But his birthday was to take care of everything himself? From buying stuffs to preparing the ingredients, he did most of the stuff. Haha. Slept at around 2am that night because he need to prepare his ingredients and etc ma. Then Thursday was the bbq night. Haha. Hoped he enjoyed himself especially the cake smashing part? Haha.

After the bbq, went to batha and sat there to see them play mahjong. But then, could not tahan so I just went to sleep first. Haha. But kept waking up and then back to sleep. Haha. .... then next day packed up and went to his house first. Then played "my shops" like finally after 2 days of not playing! Haha. Friday was ... what did I do? Eh, o, it's the same day. Haha. Then yesterday, went to meet him and wanted to get my uniform cover but did not get it. Then went to his house, he played computer while I fell alseep again -_-. Then went to meet jian wen and friends and headed down to "Sunset Grill and Pub"/

Finally! Like finally I get to go and try the buffalo wings. They ordered the level 10. Haha. It was hot! But luckily I did not sweat like hell. Ate until like near 10 and went to Nex to watch "Rio". A nice cartoon and funny one. Plot was simple but can try watching =). Hehe. Then watched until like 12.30am and then headed home.

I think that's my week. A little messy as I think I have not been typing or writing proper passage in awhile already. Haha. Alright, school is starting tomorrow. Have to go and iron my stuff though my maid have ironed it. But I have to iron out the line and etc. So tata! Will edit again to put pictures in if not it will be too bored! Tata!